...You never know what you're going to get," or rather a box of chex mix because most boxes of chocolates make me sick...lol. This quote from Forrest Gump has to be one of my favorites because it describes my summer almost perfectly. Some moments are ones you want to savor forever and others a most certainly ones you wish would end and then there are the ones you feel indifferent about.
I had the privilege of working at camp again this summer but my role was a little different then in previous summers. I was asked to be on the leadership team this summer in the role of Program along with one other person. Program is dealing with all of the skits for campfire and the running skits for the different weeks. It was a blast and I had so much fun doing it. I could tell from the beginning though that it was going to be a difficult job. When all you want is for everything to go perfect it's hard to settle for anything less. I became so worried about all the little things that needed to make the skit go right that I would get super stressed out and it was hard for me to not let it show. No one told me about this problem I had, they didn't have to. I was well aware of it and tried very hard every campfire to ask God for his help in the matter and let him to the rest. I guess it's just something I have to work on, and for sure have to let go of. But this was just one of many things that happened this summer.
Looking back I have mixed feeling about my living situation. I love the other nine girls I lived with but It was definitely hard as well. When you live in a small room with that many other girls there are bound to be moments where you wish you could just get away. I found it hard to please everybody. When I look at it from afar I think about how there are so many different personalities and so many different view points and so many different backgrounds it's hard to see why there weren't more disagreements. We are given a situation in which we are living together for three months and we don't know each other's stories; what we've been through and what we've experienced. We don't know what runs through our minds or how far we can be pushed. We learn about each other but at the same time we never fully learn about each other. It's an interesting thing to be a part of but the one thing you realize is how much you miss them once their gone back tot he life they came from.
One thing that I feel like is going exactly where it should be going is the relationship I have with Tim. It's one that most certainly came out of no where and one that most certainly I feel has God's hand in it. All he has to do is just be himself and it's everything I ever wanted in a guy. I think one of the things that makes this relationship work is how he listens to me when I talk to him about things I'm going through and how he realizes he can't take on my burdens for me. One of the things I've noticed in the guys I've dated is the princess prince scenario. If the girl has a problem the guy dresses up as the prince in shinning armor and comes to rescue her from a big tower surrounded by fire an even bigger dragon. Unfortunately because we are human we will always have problems that arise and it is left up to him to decide how long he wants to play the charming prince. Tim makes me feel good because he realizes that the only shinning prince i need can ever have is Jesus. He realizes that the things I need come from him and he is ever so willing to point me towards God every time. I could never thank him enough for doing that. And he makes sure our relationship os rooted in God by praying with me and reading the bible with me. I've never felt so good about someone in my hole life and I thank God constantly for bringing him into my life.
When I look back at my summer I think about the things I have learned and what my experiences have done for me. I feel quite a bit more social, after coming out of the shell I hid so long under. I miss all the beautifully crazy people I got to spend my summer with on the leadership team, and I feel life is moving forward as I sit here in my bedroom and tell you about it like Forrest at his buss stop told all these strangers what had happened. I wish I could go more into detail but I guess I'll have to save that for another time. 
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